Sometimes I feel weird how some things manifest, and it feels like some kind of an epiphany. I have been a fan of someone, and I feel like I feel the same way she does. I don't understand why some people put other people down intentionally. I felt sad a few days ago after being so happy. I'm not crazy or anything. I just hate how emotional I get at times. I'm way over my head.
It feels good to still have some really good friends around you. And there are only a few of them left. Really few. It's good to be reminded that you can't really please everyone. I want to achieve what a dear friend said to me before, "When you get older and more sure of yourself, the only opinion that matters is yours." This week I've learned that I can't stand not being who I really am. And in defining what that means, it's anything that contradicts my belief system, contradicts what I truly feel should be right. I hate mysterious people. I hate mind games. I hate macho shits. I really think the world would be a better place if people were more open about themselves, if we just tell how it is and not how it's supposed to be... not for mystery or coolness' sake. I think it would be better if we begin to SAY and ask for what we really want. Yes, I may not be "easy breezy" at times.
So to that "she" I'm referring to at the start of this post, I feel you. It matters.
heavy lagi ni teh.well you don't have to please everybody.as long as dili ka criminal, go lang!and as long as long as wala ka nila gidiktahan kung unsay dapat nimu buhaton/tuohan, that's ok. just be who you really are.ipadayun lng kung unsa ka.*wink*
ReplyDeletenaaffected jud ka kei "idol"? sayang gali nalingaw baya ko post questions nia. magconfess ko bitch, ako tong ngpost na gidudahan nimo! hahaha.
ReplyDeletei totally hate mind games! i'm never good at that. i hope people could just be straightforward about their feelings. if i like you, i want to tell you and if you like me too then please say so. then we can be friends or might be a couple, we're not gonna get married right away. duh. screw macho shits. and cheers to being our true selves and being comfortable about it!:)