i feel like writing tonight

I'm trying to switch things up a little bit. So I went to the grocery store and bought myself something to cook for dinner. If you know me, you'll know this doesn't sound like me at all. But I wanted to prepare myself dinner, cook for myself, mind you. Nothing really fancy, just my comfort food: porkchop and tomatoes. I bought myself some ice cream too. So there I was enjoying my home-cooked meal, and then I realized I felt peaceful with myself. It's been so long since I felt this way. The past six months were one of the darkest moments of my adult life. Rock-bottom would be an understatement. After that, it's been a roller coaster of emotions. But I was surprised at how much hope I had in me. It's unbelievable. Every time I feel like giving up, it always dawned on me how much I wanted so much more out of life and that this cannot be it. When I listened to songs that made me cry a few months ago, lo and behold there's not much to cry about anymore. I still have a long way to go. But damn, I'm so proud of myself. How about that?