overthinking

I think I'll be more comprehensive if this is a chain of random things. Just random things on my mind as the year closes.

• Last night, I had a drink with two of my high school friends and I ended up irritating myself because of the things I said. My sin is overthinking, and this is another manifestation of it. I tend to blurt out things (with the help of alcohol) that makes me cringe the morning after. I don't like this to happen anymore. When I drink, I say something I thought was interesting. When I wake up the next day and replay the night's events, it wasn't that interesting anymore. It's stupid. And this happens to me all the time.
• I'm addicted to self discovery. What I mean is looking up my zodiac sign and believing all the crap that I read when I know for a fact I'm just kidding myself. I learned that Helen of Troy was a Libran, and we hate being alone. The latter is a fact for me.
• I can't wait to travel this 2011. I want to be at the beach, having fun, eating and talking with great friends and perhaps new friends.
• My personal theme will be beauty. I read somewhere that if you look good, you'll feel good. If you feel good, you'll play good. If you play good, you get paid good. It sounds like a pretty good mantra to me.
• As the year closes, I keep telling myself that 2010 has been a really rough year for me. I love using the word "rock bottom" because I did feel like that for quite sometime. But with the recognition, I swear deep in my heart I have this feeling 2011 will be a really great year for me. I can smell it, almost taste it. Yum.
• Lastly, smile. A smile will go a long way. This is so random. Haha